Some days are just like that. You come home, toss your bag in the corner, half-heartedly hang your coat on the rack (or let it gracefully slide to the floor, let’s be honest), and sigh so deeply the windows could fog up. Today was one of those days. Emotional. With a capital E. But you know what? Somewhere between “What a shitty day”* and “The universe has a plan for you”, I’m floating.
And I choose to hold on to what does feel good. No matter how small. Because even on the hardest days, I get to decide how I deal with it.
One detail. One moment. And everything feels different.
It’s often not the big things that throw me off balance.It can be the tiniest detail. A glance. A comment. A thought that lingers.Normally, I’d brush it off. But not today.
Today, it’s pressing on my chest. Today, it’s caught in my throat.
And I thought to myself: “Okay. I guess today is just one of those days. So let’s feel it then.”
My inner monologue sounded something like this:
– Damn, you really wish you could share this with someone.
– But you know what, Jen? You also know this will pass.
– Is something wrong? Not really, just my mood on shuffle.
– Am I sad? Yeah, a little.
– Am I proud of myself? More than ever.
These days – where things rub the wrong way, where everything comes to a halt – they bring me closer to who I really am.
Because I don’t need a relationship to feel complete. No savior. No shoulder as my only foundation. I want to lean on myself first. Solid. Confident. Not because I don’t need anyone, but because I want to be able to carry myself before I let someone else in.
I’m not a half-finished puzzle waiting for a missing piece. I am already whole.
And you know what? That goes for you too.
For you, woman reading this
If it feels like you’re drowning in everything you’re feeling, without anything to hold on to — know this:You are not weak. You are not “too much”.You are a complete human being.You’re allowed to feel and move forward.To cry and laugh.To fall and get back up.
You don’t need to be “fixed” to be worthy. Not for anyone else — and not for yourself either. On the days when everything shifts and storms, when you just don’t know anymore…
Pause. Breathe deeply.
And whisper to yourself: “I am stronger than this moment.”
Because you are. Truly.
Love,
Jennifer
